I’ve just spoken to the paed.

On Wednesday he phoned David and among other things, told him that Ivy’s colonoscopy showed a thing called melanosis coli.

Now, before you go and google that, you should know, that everything that comes up talks about laxative abuse.

Yep. Laxative abuse.

As you can imagine, for the last couple of days, all hell has broken out here.

I have cried a million tears. I have been angry and hurt because I thought that the paed knew me better than that and I thought my husband most certainly did.

It has been like a big slap in the face.

No one directly accused me but it was there.

Hanging in the air.

I guess though, when you can’t make a diagnosis, it’s easier to blame the mother.

I still feel sick just thinking about it.

Anyhow, I’ve just spoken to the paed, challenged him and told him the distress he has caused and he has discounted laxative abuse, right off the bat.

Thank God for small mercies.

Why he couldn’t tell David that is beyond me.

He said that it can be caused by a whole lot of other things and she would need to be tested for something in particular, that I can’t remember the name of right now because I was so cranky. Something granulosis.

We have started her on a gluten, wheat and lactose free diet. On Monday we are going to do a ‘big shop’ of all things free of wheat, gluten and lactose. At the moment it’s just Ivy but come Monday we will be eating…ummm, not sure what.

I need help for good recipes, so if anyone out there is eating gluten free, throw me your tips and ideas, okay?

We have had a really quiet day today because the erythromycin has been causing her to vomit and I am now worn out from being upset with the paed.